An Exercise in Futility?

Maybe, maybe not.

I am about to do one of my stupid things again. I am not going to ask Tara about lunch tomorrow and I am just gonna see if she asks me. I am wondering if I just sic myself on her and she doesn't have the energy to try to get rid of me.

I don't know, she seems to enjoy lunch with me when we go, but she never initiates.

I know this trial is stupid, I really do, but it never prevents me from doing it. Like not initiating sex until Ben has, who really benefits from that? I think he is amused when I get on him, but I still do these things.

I used to do this all the time as a teenager. I would just stay away from Campus for awhile and then come back and see if anyone noticed.

I don't know that anyone mentioned it. I guess I am really just setting myself up for disappointment, but it SUCKS being the one who initiates hanging out every time.

So, if any of you don't here from me for awhile, that is more than likely why. I've decided that I don't know if you "really" like me, and I am waiting it out. Yeah, it's dumb and I know it, but it doesn't make it any easier.

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Brandy said…
I get tired of initiating and being shot down all the time. Maybe it's just years of rejection creeping up on her. Maybe she's relieved and thinking if she asks you, you won't say yes... but if you ask her, you've already said yes.
Maybe this is just undue stress on her!
*tease*
9:39 AM
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