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Wednesday, October 8th So tired, but must update‏ I always need a day to FREAK out. Once I get my freak out out of my system, I feel better. Cause you know what? I've gotten through so much in my life, like this dental insurance thing will be the thing that makes me lose it. No, it won't. Onward and upward. One way or another I'll make do. It's just that the thought of him being "uninsured" is freaking me out. A backwards slide into "white trash", if you will. I hated "The Mist". The ending sucked and beyond any of that, I don't understand why it was so religious based feeling. And I have a hard time accepting that any benevolent god would be so drastic. I guess I just have a hard time when I feel like people are being persecuted for being different. I guess I'm full of over-privileged guilt. Hah. Yeah, I am SO over privileged. Imagine how Ben must have felt though. I'm in the bedroom in the dark, bawling my eyes out over the...

Not that I haven't been. I have, just the cheating whore kind of blogging on MySpace. So now you get updates. Hopefully funny, but probably not as I am drunk and I have a bump in an area that is hurting me. Not my ass thankfully, no, a more delicate place. I take that back. Can I please have an ass bump again? I'm also going to do that thing where I put the oldest post at the bottom. Hah. Cause it's easiest for me. And I am drunk. Did I mention that? Plus I have to eat Hamburger Helper for dinner and it's sapped my will to live. P.S. Today I did something that I may actually be a little ashamed of. I shall speak of it no more after this. P.S.S. I was just re-reading some of my blogs, and I officially HATE my fucking bangs. They are ALWAYS in my face. I'm about to shave them off. P.S.S.S. There you go. A whole month of blog entries, copied over from MySpace like the MySpace whore I am. ------------------------------------------- August 30, 2008 Let me tell you someth...

Ok, so I admit I have a problem. I'm a MySpace whore and a blogger traitor. It's just that I know more people are reading my MySpace blog and commenting, and it's hard to keep up two blogs. I am teh suck. ___________________________________________________ Tuesday, July 29th (also known as Jenn's birthday!) Title: I had a crazy moment today.. Or at least a moment where I realized how crazy I can be if not held in check. There is this girl at work who I hate. I think everyone knows this. I can't seem to stomach her at all. I gave her lots of chances in the beginning, but she never seemed to get better. I've taken to not looking her directly in the face at all when I can avoid it, I dislike her so much. But today while trying to work together on the phones, I realized how much I really dislike her. I had to sneeze, but I didn't. Instead I held it in, and the reason why I did was because otherwise she would say "bless you" and I would have to be POLIT...

But my cousin is rocking all over the place. We have great discussions via blog responses. LOL. I’m sorry I stopped responding. I have no real excuse, just busy and every time I get in front the computer (when Ben is not already there) I keep playing Doom. We’ll get over it, but for now we are being spectacular slackers and playing Doom like maniacs. He watches me play and tells me where to go. I gave up last night after the big pink guy got out of his cage and came after me. It’s good that I didn’t blog yesterday, I was full of piss and vinegar. Just totally pissed off. I’m still a bit annoyed. My appointment for my re-up on my birth control was canceled. Unfortunately, they did not have my work phone number and could not be bothered to leave a message with Ben. The only good thing that came from having to leave work early, riding the bus for an HOUR to get there, and then being turned away, was that I ran into Heather from my little three musketeers group of friends in high school. S...

I'm completely blanking on relevant song lyrics lately. You know what else? I email myself ideas all the time. My hotmail account has like...10 pages of emails from me. Little ideas to blog about, more fleshed out ideas. And yet I can't ever seem to just sit and branch out on the ideas. Then I get pissed when I want to type but don't have anything to say. But I tend to forget about the emailed ideas until I go clean out my Hotmail account. Which I hadn't checked since September last time I looked at it. I get home and I mean to post and then all I can do is get my kid to bed, eat dinner, and sit on the bed with Ben and chill. I don't even look at the computer. Part of it is self preservation as I know that I could very well look up and realize it's almost midnight and I have to get up at 6! I'm too old to stay up so late. Especially since I wake often in the night. I'm convinced I need a sleep number bed. It will make my waking up not happen. Sure. LOL. ...