Random Thoughts

Yes, I was THAT person. Bored tonight. Melancholy for no real good reason. Just because I can, I guess. It's been a million years since I updated this blog, I was thinking I'd let it fall to the wayside and yet, here I am. This blog has become like my hotmail account, over 2,000 messages and I can't seem to make myself check it. Notable things lately? I can't sleep worth a crap it seems. I'm always worried (which is nothing new) about something...money, the child, etc. This seems to have transferred to Ben. We'll probably both be pretty pissed off by the end of this sleepless stretch. That will be awesome. /sarcasm. He's been making an effort to come to bed earlier so that I don't get woken up as much since I finally explained my problems with sleeping. I guess I thought I woke him up at night and that he realized how shitty it was becoming. I explained that I don't think I've had a really long sleep since Easter. The night his tooth went all to ...

It's not my birthday anymore. I had a GREAT birthday party. Oh, the awesomeness. Eileen called me at one point and I always have Ben answer the phone, so she was like is this Desiree's phone? And when he asked who it was, she was like..tell her it's her favorite co-worker. And dude, she's RIGHT AT THIS POINT. It was FUNNY. I got chicken, and people got fed as I sat around like an drunk idiot and Alma and Carrie and Eileen even bought me a CAKE. That thing I didn't do. It was awesome. Eileen pretty much rocks my socks off. In any case, my birthday party pretty much was awesome. It's like once in a million years, the universe aligns and presents me with an awesome birthday, on a weekend, good attendance, happy times, and good food. It turned out to be pretty much perfect. Not too many people, and I had a LOT of fun. The last people left about an hour ago, which is pretty much perfect for me, as I fall asleep early. We had a few no shows, but that's kind of to ...

Yes, I did have to spell it that way. It's said like "anotha", I'm keeping it right. I'm not sure why I thought that this part of the process would be any better. But I read somewhere that if you are going to waste time worrying about things when you don't know how they will turn out, you might as well "worry" that they will turn out well. So, I was faintly optimistic on Monday when I went down to Legal Aid for this whole being sued business. Turns out? I'm not poor enough. The really suck thing is that I might be poor enough if I said I supported Ben, but then we have to get all involved in his money that he can't touch. Meaning, I would need to have his financial information and I don't know if it will help or hinder me. The main reason I say 2 in the house when they ask me, I never know if adding him is a good thing or not. My housing payments went down when he stopped receiving money. Maybe that's a good sign? I don't know whe...