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Which is being reminded to me. Thank GOD I'm a woman. Thanks for the cramping, and thanks for the nausea. It REALLY makes my day. And the bloating. And how I want to EAT everything in sight. Today, while lotioning the tattoo (cause that's a MUST), a little piece of scab came off! And it was blue, with a black line along the outside. It was a tattoo colored piece of skin and I SHOWED IT TO THE TALKER! I was like COOL. And maybe she thought it was gross, but since she talks to me all the time, I just don't care. She's driving me crazy. Today was the day of stupid questions. "Is it still burning?" O_o....I never said it WAS burning. "Oh, you probably can't even take tylenol for it, cause it thins the blood?" I think that's only aspirin and it REALLY doesn't hurt enough to warrant a pain reliever. It's a little sore, but no biggie. I hadn't worn a bra since yesterday, so when I put one on yesterday morning, I was pleasantly surprised ...

Tomorrow, I shall find something besides the Black Eyed Peas. Today you're screwed. Union Black Eyed Peas [One for all, one for all] [It’s all it’s all for one] Let’s start a union, calling every human It’s one for all and all for one Let’s live in unison, calling every citizen It’s one for all and all for one We don’t want war- can’t take no more It’s drastic time for sure We need a anidote and a cure Coz do you really think Mohammed got a problem with your whole world We don’t want war – imagine if any prophet was alive In current days amongst you and I You think they’d view life like you and I do Or would they sit and contemplate on why Do we live this way, act and behave this way We still live in primitive today Coz the peace in the destination of war can’t be the way There’s no way, so people just be a woman be a man Realise that you can’t change the world by changing yourself And understand that we’re all just the same So when I count to three let’s change [Chorus] Got no tim...

I've been watching the river. Every day, when I go over the bridge. Water is awe inspiring. RUSHING water is just more magnificent. I watch it as long as I can. From the bridge, down through Glenwood, when I can see it between the buildings, past the buildings, when I can see it in it's full glory. A couple weeks ago, the whole parking lot at the park under the bridge was a river. Or at least a pond. It's gone down some, but not all the way. We've had a lot of rain this year. I'm sure it was more than last year. I just really love how fast the water goes when there is SO much. When it almost reaches the banks, it's really something else. Glad I don't live down by there, but SO glad I can see the river. Even the tiny stream just down the road is higher. It's nothing like the river, but it's still a little thrilling. Beyond how dirty the water is. What with shopping carts and shit in there. Fucking people. Gotta screw up nature.

They "borrowed" the beat from Miserlu for this. It really works. And since I like that song, having words to associate it with just makes me happier. Call me crazy. Pump It Black Eyed Peas Ha ha ha Pump it Ha ha ha And pump it (louder) [4x] Turn up the radio Blast your stereo Right N*ggas wanna hate on us (who) N*ggas can be eerin' us (who) And I know why they hatin' on us (why) Cause that’s so fabulous (what) I’ma be real on us (c’mon) Nobody got nuttin' on us (no) Girls be all on us, from London back down to the US (s, s) We rockin' it (contagious), monkey business (outrageous) Just confess, your girl admits that we the sh*t F-R-E-S-H (fresh) D-E-F, that’s right we def (rock) We definite B-E-P, we rappin' it So, turn it up (turn it up) [3x] C’mon baby, just Pump it (louder) [6x] And sigh, oh oh oh oh Sigh, oh oh oh oh Yo, yo Turn up the radio Blast your stereo Right now This joint is fizzlin' It’s sizzlin' Right (Yo, check this out right here) Du...

I kinda think Wasabi would help my sinuses right now. Too bad Safeway didn't have the SPICY stuff. Fuck you Safeway.

I habba code. I thought you all would like to hear the way I sound right now. I'm sore and my head hurts. To catch you up. Taxes are here! (I SO want to spend money, but I'm too sore to go anywhere.) Ariel's moving party is set for the 17th of February. PLEASE COME. We shall all say bye and stuff. I spent MONEY yesterday. Like crazy. It's nice to be able to do that. I decided that a tattoo MUST be an order. Isn't it PRETTY??? (edit - it's NOT this big) It's on my shoulder and it's more blue than gray. The purple is right though. It wasn't as bad as I remembered it being. Maybe cause I couldn't see it. (I'm a bleeder) :s Derek got a bumper sticker that says, "We tattooed your mom". Which was funny as hell. Went for coffee at Shari's. Our waitress IGNORED us. But we still got some food. Also, decided that since we were in the Gateway area, a trip to the porn store was in order. I was proclaimed kinkiest. Which makes me happy. I tr...

From now on, I shall only think people are talking about me when they say my name or are speaking directly to me. I think I can guess what people are talking about and I don't always get it right. Of course, "I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it." I was thinking today on the bus that people censor themselves....often to not make others feel bad. At least it seems that way to me. I can understand. I get my feelings hurt too easily. But I have to wonder if it's better to be completely clueless about what others think (that's me - ostrich head stuck in the sand), or if it's better to know that people don't like this or that about you. I tend to jump on people when I feel criticized though, so who could blame anyone for not pointing out something that really isn't that big of a deal? Like maybe my being to lenient with Derek or something. If I ask advice, I would hope that you would tell me the truth. Or if something was a big deal, ...

So my theme for today should be this. Don't Take it Personal (Just One of Those Days) Monica It's just one of them days When i wanna be all alone It's just one of them days When i gotta be all alone It's just one of them days Don't take it personal I just wanna be all alone And you think i treat you wrong Verse 1: I wanna take some time out to think things through I know it always feels i'm doing you wrong But i'm so in love with you So understand that i'm only in love You're the only one i need So have no thought that i want to leave And baby trust me please Chorus: It's just one of them days That a girl goes through When i'm angry inside Don't wanna take it out on you Just one of them things Don't take it personal I just wanna be all alone And you think i treat you wrong Don't take it personal Baby, baby, baby, baby ,baby Don't take it personal Verse 2: I sit and i think about everything we do And i find myself in misery and...

find myself watching something and not really knowing why. Cause I'll be typing and I won't pay attention. The other day it was HOCKEY. Yes, hockey. Earlier tonight, I came into the room while a guy was eating a RAW FROG! And it's still beating heart. And you think that woulda been enough to stop the madness and turn off the TV. But now I got sucked into The Dog. I know how you feel 'Zilla.

And no censorship here either. I've made a post that upset someone. Someone I like. Someone who is my friend. I thought about deleting it and pretending it was never there. But it's not like either of us will forget it that way. So, I'm leaving it there. In all my tactless glory. I freaked and had to post about how I was gonna have another person move on me. I lost my tact...if there was any to begin with. (I DO try, really) I don't deal well with people moving. 1. One of my closest friends from Elementary and middle school, A person who, even though I deviated from her to another, took me back when I realized the other person was a total bitch, waited and watched us drive away. The beginning of the night and we pull out to move here. She just watched us leave. I think she would've stood there for hours if she coulda saw the car. My mother had decided in all of TWO days to move out here with her close friend (my aunt, who isn't really my aunt, but she was ALWAYS...

Take Another Little Piece of My Heart Janis Joplin (though Melissa Etheridge does a REALLY good cover) Come on Come on Come on Come on Didn't I make you feel Like you were the only man Yeah didn't I give you nearly everything that a woman possibly can honey you know I did Each time I tell myself that I well I think I've had enough What I'm gonna show you baby is that a woman can be tough CHORUS: I want you to come on, come on, come on, come on And take it Take another little piece of my heart now baby Break it Break another little bit of my heart now darlin' yeah Have a Have another little piece of my heart now baby You know you got it if it makes you feel good, oh yes it did You're out on the streets lookin' good And baby deep down in your heart I guess you know that it ain't right Never never never never never never Hear me when I cry, cry, cry, cry Baby I cry all the time Each time I tell myself that I well I can't stand the pain But when you hol...

I hope that that comes across. Cause I'm SO happy she's happy. It's just that little more than a year ago, I started this whole blog (OK, my SECOND post) with this little post. (OK, so I was trying to link, but when the comments open a whole new window, I can't get the right link.) That's what copy and paste is for.. Oh Yeah I had an epiphany the other day. I realized that I have no special girlfriends who I see regularly. I have girls who I would probably call my "best friends" but would prolly not get the same response back. In fact, they would prolly say someone else is there "best friend". Granted I am not in High school anymore, but I miss that feeling of comraderie and being able to laugh my ass off at nothing at all. So, I think I should take out an ad for a best friend, but I am too afraid of the responses. It would go something like this: Wanted: Best Friend Must be dependable Must be flexible Must be "silly" Must love coffee ...

I particularly would be fixated on the pig as well. I'm one of those people. Tenacious... Or pigheaded. Depends on how you look at it. ________________________________________________________________________________ If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of tea. (Hardly seems worth it.) If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb. (Now that's more like it!) The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet. (O.M.G.!) A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes. (In my next life, I want to be a pig.) A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to death. (Creepy.) (I'm still not over the pig.) Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour. (Do not try this at home....... maybe at work.) The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. Th...

Pick one word from each pair that you think describes me the best & leave it in the comments. Then copy this and post it in your own blog to see how your friends view you. * dominant or submissive * logical or intuitive * social or loner * kinky or vanilla * cute or sophisticated * kitten or puppy * warm flannel sheets or sleek satin * leader or follower * quiet or talkative * spontaneous or planned * teddy bear or porcelain doll * hiking or window shopping * tequila or vodka * top or bottom * bare foot or shoes * jeans or slacks * tender or rough * aware or dreamy * nerd or jock

We are ALL gonna pretend that my best friend isn't LEAVING me in less than two months. So that I can try and stop my little hissy fit. For something COMPLETELY off the subject.... How's the weather? How was your weekend? Will people ever stop leaving me? When did I get so bitter? When did life get so hard? Why do I have to be an adult? All I gotta say, is, there better be many weekends in which I can see her before she leaves. But she'll prolly be busy. :s Cause moving is hard. But WE aren't talking about that... Instead, What did you have for dinner? Who's got their taxes done? (mine got "accepted" and now say something about getting here by the 21st of next month. Ten days my ass. It better be sooner.) How am I not gonna cry the last time I see her before she moves? This is all just mostly to illustrate what my mind keeps coming back to.

One of our interns at work got this in her e-mail. She's one year younger than me, so it works. You Know You Were Born in the Eighties if 1) You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE". 2) You watched the Pound Puppies. 3) You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air" 4) You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish. 5) You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own. 6) You owned those lil Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls. 7) You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom. 8) Two words: M.C. Hammer 9) If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock". 10) You had plastic streamers on your handle bars. 11) You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales". 12) When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. 13) You wore a ponytail on the side of your head. 14) You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen...

Ariel and I walked down to Safeway at 11:40 or so. They have the spicy surimi sushis. It's REALLY good. Like a crab salad thing with rice and the seaweed, which I couldn't taste, and SESAME seeds. Little black ones even. I sat there and ate my sushis while they had taquitos. Ariel told me that I should try the wasabi. Which was SCARY. But I tried it. It was SPICY. And only spicy in the back of my throat.... Strange, but I liked it. I prolly shouldn't sit there and eat the whole thing. But I did. It's not a single serving container apparently. But who eats THREE sushis? That's not much. Screw them. I do want I want.

This came outta to kid tonight when he was SUPER tired. I was trying to explain something to Mina, then the kid got all pissed off cause it was too late for a story. I told him to stop stomping around before he hurt someone accidentally again. He FREAKED out. Derek: YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME! NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME! Me: I do care about you, and.. Derek: YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME! Me: Go to bed, you're tired. Derek: NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME! Me: I DO care about you, but you are tired, please go to bed. And on and on for awhile.

So, I didn't invite a bunch of people over. It was meant as an Ariel is coming over to get drunk thing. Tammy came over with the Cruz Man as well. Which was fantastic. Then Karina brought me presents and now I feel bad. I DID tell her to come over, but she was busy. I didn't invite much of anyone. I hope she doesn't feel left out. Thanks for the PRESSIE. I love presents. I MISS YOU. I know that circumstances usually mean we don't get to hang out, but I miss you anyhow. Is that allowed? I wish you coulda hung out. When my tax returns come in, I want to go to a movie, or just wander around the mall with you. For the whole day. Something to give me ample Karina time.

So, I've read many different books. If you didn't get this already, you aren't paying attention. While I read Stephen King, I also read things like Anne of Green Gables. WHY IS THIS 80 FUCKING DOLLARS? This makes me sad, I've LOVED this series and the movies ever since OPB used to show them when they did their charity drives. I'm a sad panda. I can't justify spending that much on myself. :(

Was talking all philosophical-like yesterday. He was asking me about work and I was like....well, it's back to getting off at seven, but that's just the way it is. He was like...well, I know you're not complaining. I was like....no, not really. Jobs are good. He started talking about how someone that day had wished that they were rich. And he said that he wouldn't rather be rich. His best friend had been married to a rich woman and she was NEVER happy. I could see that. I could see people never feeling pride from a job done right. I could see people always being unhappy because most of the time their life is "easy", so when something goes wrong, they don't know how to deal with it. As much as I used to wish I could be coddled and taken care of by my parents, I'm glad that I developed the ability to "roll with the punches". (DAMN, I seem to be FULL of cliches today) I KNOW that I can make it better. And that most of ANYTHING is all about your ...

I must confess that this album isn't really sucking me in. I am a little sad....cause I've always LOVED Fiona. I haven't listened to the whole thing yet. I just like the Extraordinary Machine part of the song. It's all about the hook. Extraordinary Machine Fiona Apple I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes And I certainly haven't been spreading myself around I still only travel by foot and by foot it's a slow climb But I'm good at being uncomfortable so I can't stop changing all the time I noticed that my opponent is always on the go And won't go slow so as not to focus and I notice He'll hitch a ride with any guide as long as they go fast from whence he came But he's no good at being uncomfortable so he can't stop staying exactly the same If there was a better way to go then it would find me I can't help it the road just rolls out behind me Be kind to me or treat me mean I'll make the most of it I'm an extrao...

I realized today that I've finally started to like the rain. I used to hide under umbrellas and hoods. Sometimes I still do. But more often, I just let it hit me. I don't wear make-up so it can't run. My hair might get a little wet. But it'll dry. My shirt was SOAKED, but it dried as well. I suppose I DID wear my hood today. But that's just because I don't really relish the water dripping ALL over my face. I like to breath and stuff. Also, I like to see. I'm not sure when I started liking the rain. I am a water sign, so maybe that has something to do with it. Maybe I like water that much. Enough to be rained on and not care. I still hate wet feet.

You know, the one I've only briefly mentioned.... (You guys are SO lucky you don't have to work with me, Tara gets the whole update everyday. VERY TMI) All I shall say is that there are three different lengths of this medicine that I need to be better. 1 Day, 3 Days, and 7 Days. The people who share my pain shall understand. The people who don't get it, obviously haven't "gotten" it. So fuck off. Cause I'm irritated and I only wish I could say the same. I thought....oh, well, it would be REALLY nice if this could be done in three days. So three days later and $7.50 shorter, I'm STILL infected. My body must NEED seven days to get rid of this shit. It's MARGINALLY better, but I had to shell out another $10 dollars for more. At least my benny card worked. No out of pocket expense for me! Cause I'm poor. I'd like to be rid of this. I'd like to be able to take a bath. I'd like to be able to have sex. Now you must all hear of it, cause I ...

I gotta pull back into the nineties now. I just used up all the songs I had for my new CD. So, we gotta go back. Something He Can Feel En Vogue Verse 1 Many say that I'm too young to let you know just where I'm coming from. But you will see it's just a matter of time my love surely make you mine (1) Well, I'm Livin in a world of ghetto life Everyone Seems so uptight Nothin's wrong, it's alright, my man I like the way we carry on His love will send me on and on with my man People out there can you understand (2) I'm givin him somethin he can feel to let him know this love is real This love is real Verse 2 So much joy for us it seems So much hope for material things Are they only in my dreams? (hey, oh yeah) And that's exactly why I'm singing this song to you To let you know that real dreams do come true. You tell me 'what does it mean'. Repeat (1) Repeat (2) to a fade

Ask me a question about each of these categories. [FRIENDS] [SEX] [MUSIC] [GIRLS] [EVERYDAY LIFE] [LOVE] [BLOGGER] [RANDOM]

In the clean version...they censor wrists, when he says "her wrists are bleeding." I mean....WTF? Like without wrists, you don't KNOW what he means. They didn't censor bleeding. They also censor pill, when he says "take another pill, you know you will" It just seems weird to me to censor those two parts. When I'm Gone Eminem (Eminem Talking) Yeah.... it's my life.... in my own words i guess.... (Verse 1) Have you ever loved someone so much You'd give an arm for Not the expression No, literally give an arm for When they know they're your heart And you know you were their armor And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm her But what happens when karma Turns right around to bite you And everything you stand for turns on you despite you What happens when you become the main source of her pain "Daddy look what i made" Dad's got to go catch a plane "Daddy where's mommy?" "I can't find mommy, where is she?...

I often read a couple of different books. One at the house, for the bath and being bored. One at work, for lunch time. Maybe even one in the back-pack. I'm crazy like that. I know what's going on in each different one. I don't get confused. I've got it down to an art. This means that I finish books one right after another, fairly quickly. I just finished The ABC Murders - Agatha Christie.....Poirot! Who doesn't love a good CLASSIC murder mystery. I have to say that I didn't expect the turn at the end. But that's what a good book does right? It doesn't give it away. The other night....maybe this morning? I finished Tattoo Blues. One of the ARC books. I picked it up cause it said TATTOO in the title. Then if course, when I read the back, I saw that her one of the characters names is Desiree. Even spelled right. I had to have this book! It was actually a REALLY good book. I finished it pretty quickly. I loved this, specifically. "Ha! Nothing I like bet...

I'm a little drunk now. I feel better....or at least the alcohol is a good pain killer and distracter. It's nice. Anyhow. I]m alternating between being drunk and playing games on the computer, and pushing my boobs together (cause boobs are good for playing with), and trying to fall asleep sitting up. Cause I'm tired, I guess. But I'm trying. I drink too much coffee for caffeine to affect me when I'm only driking coke. I can't stay awake. ------------------------------ In other news, I've managed to cut myself twice in the past 3 days or so. It's called talent. That's all there is too it. Twice at the mall yesterday, I tried to trip over my own feet. I guess I drag them. Which only seems to get me in trouble in malls. Weird. And while these may only be paper cuts and stapler cuts, they hurt. My thumb particularly. You know how when you get a papercut, you usually run your finger down the side of something? This time I only reached into my bag to get s...

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Desiree! Owls cannot move their eyes, because their eyeballs are shaped like Desiree! Czar Paul I banished Desiree to Siberia for marching out of step! It takes a lobster approximately 7 years to grow to be Desiree. In Chinese, the sound 'Desiree' means 'bite the wax tadpole'. It takes more than 500 peanuts to make Desiree! It is bad luck to walk under Desiree! Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and Desiree has 7. About one tenth of Desiree is permanently covered in ice! Desiree can squeeze her entire body through a hole the size of her beak. Desiree can last longer without water than a camel can! I am interested in - do tell me about her him it them

I'm tired people. I have an infection too. An unpleasant one and it's made me VERY irritated all day. I'm going to drink tonight, so that I can't feel the unpleasantness. I don't know if I'll post again tonight though. Today was a MESS. Just one fuck up after another. Then everything went crazy and I ran right up to the minute getting my shit done. I didn't even get all the paperwork together, but the money is all counted and deposited, so that's all I care about. I'm SO glad I don't have to work tomorrow. Derek has Monday off, so does the U of O. But I don't. For some reason, we have to be open. I don't get it. Oh well. I got more money in the mail today. So far 2006 is working out pretty well. Besides the infection. That I could do without. But this bodes well for taxes. They should be done and back soon. That would be FANTASTIC. Karen sent the money already! Unbelievably enough, they must have decided that since last month's took F...

The fence is FIXED. Overnight. I think the neighbors fixed it. It appear to have held up all day. I'm supposed to give them my landlord's number so that they can talk to each other about it. Apparently, she put the fence up when she owned both propertys, but now she only owns the duplexes. She wants to talk with the owner and see what they can agree on. Even though it's back up, I'm not sure how steady it is or anything. The dog didn't manage to take it down. Which is good, considering his size. He's a BIG puppy. I wonder when they noticed.

It wasn't too bad. I got this BRILLIANT idea that I should use my over time to take a long lunch and run all the way out to VRC. McDonald's was calling and my See's candy gift certificate was a PERFECT excuse to have lunch out there. I timed the busses. Ran out and found See's. Good thing I saw it before I was inside, or I NEVER woulda found it. VRC is NOT my mall. I have NO IDEA where anything out there is anymore. Maybe once upon a time. Then, of course, I'm waiting for the Breeze and eating. I figure, this way I can just shut the bag and take the fries with me. As I am debating catching a different bus, or finishing my quarter pounder, I see some kids running and I figure....ok, well, they wanted to catch the bus. Bus pulls out and security guards start running as well. Oops. I don't know what they did. Prolly shoplifting. What really got me is that then this pregnant 10 YEAR OLD....ok, she was prolly a teenager, but DAMN do they look young) comes out and tel...

I had to go do something in Tara's room tonight. I put on the music and SANG LOUDLY with it. I figure door shut = people can't hear me, right? If I can't see them, they can't hear me. Some sort of logic like that. I've REALLY been getting into the Fallout Boy song. So much so that I actually sing with my full voice and not high and trying to be a soprano-like. I KNOW a lot of people TRY to be sopranos. I know that I did this in my middle school choir class. Had I give it my all, I mighta got that solo. It coulda happened. So, I'm just singing as LOUD as I can in the back room when Charles sticks his head in and goes "Oh..." I was like....yes? He says...well, I heard this song and I was like....I didn't THINK a girl did that song. I was like.....0_o...No, that's me. Now I can be all shy and red faced. When I came back out, he was like....no, it was fine singing. I didn't go in there to tell you to stop or anything. It wasn't BAD singing....

So, I ALWAYS liked the beat to this. I had NO idea that the lyrics were THIS suggestive. Granted, it's not the censored version, but DAMN. Candy Shop 50 Cent featuring Olivia [Intro: 50 Cent] Yeah... Uh huh So seductive [Chorus: 50 Cent & Olivia] [50 Cent] I take you to the candy shop I'll let you lick the lollypop Go 'head girl, don't you stop Keep goin 'til you hit the spot (whoa) [Olivia] I'll take you to the candy shop Boy one taste of what I got I'll have you spending all you got Keep going 'til you hit the spot (whoa) [Verse 1: 50 Cent] You can have it your way, how do you want it You gon' back that thing up or should i push up on it Temperature rising, okay lets go to the next level Dance floor jam packed, hot as a teakettle I'll break it down for you now, baby it's simple If you be a nympho, I'll be a nympho In the hotel or in the back of the rental On the beach or in the park, it's whatever you into Got the magic stick, I...

I STILL have a dog. From looking at pictures, it's definitely a pit bull. At least I know what it is. I was guessing it was a pit bull, but I wasn't sure. It's a friendly pit bull. But dogs scare me, so I shall not be touching it, or getting close enough to be bitten without knowing the owners first.

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TODAY it is six months until my next birthday! YAY! I'm 25 1/2! I FELT older today. *grin*

We started talking yesterday about it being two months away from our FIVE YEAR anniversary. Is it just me who thinks FIVE YEARS is significant? Anyhow, it's crazy. Then I had this dream. We decided that we would just move. To PARIS, or somewhere similarly exotic. Away from Jake and just somewhere that would be NEW and FANTASTIC. (ideas like just moving at a seconds notice FREAK the hell outta me) But in my dream I was excited. Terrified but excited. Then he came home with some friends. Might have been Ally (HAHAHA, like she could be friends with Ben and I - sorry that wasn't meant as being mean to her, just funny to myself that I included her. Maybe I miss her a little.) and maybe (???) Jesse. Dreams aren't terribly clear to me all the time. Anyhow, Ben was like...we can't move right now. I was a little sad, but also relieved. So then I was like...ok, I wanna go to the bar... (PATTERN!!! I had a dream that Jake and Ariel (???!!!!) were in her car with me and they were g...

I ACTIVELY tried NOT to like this song. It's a TAD repetitive and I like some good lyrics, not the same thing over and over. I think the beat might save it though. And I really like the part with "You'll wake up one day, but it'll be too late." Cause that is applicable to MANY different situations and people. So there's ALWAYS an excuse to pull it out and listen. Ok, enough. Hung Up Madonna Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Every little thing that you say or do I'm hung up I'm hung up on you Waiting for your call Baby night and day I'm fed up I'm tired of waiting on you Time goes by so slowly for those who wait No time to hesitate Those who run seem to have all the fun I'm caught up I don't know what to do Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly Time goes by so slowly I don't know what to do Every little thing that you say o...

Our food buyer decided that she never used her BIG bottle-o-lotion. It's Suave and raspberry. I think it's past it's prime though. It's all spurty. Too watery and not thick. I shook it and that didn't help. I decided that maybe cleaning out the pump hole would be a good idea. The minute I get all the gunk out, it REALLY spurted. All over me. In my hair, on my shirt. Quit thinking like that pervert! ;)

I'm ALWAYS running late. At least I'm only ten days late. I thought I'd give some sort of introspective year post. Let's see what I can come up with. January 2005: I was heavy into the blogging. Slacking WAY too much at work. Reading up on all things Dooce. Adding my own stuff to the blogosphere. I hit 100 hits! Amazing that now I'm up to 8,000. Jesse annoyed me. My pants ripped and my ass fell out. Bus strike talks started and I started freaking! The Talker started to annoy me so much that I wanted to smack her. February 2005: Filed taxes, waited FOREVER, it felt like. Started planning my first girly sleepover. I got a fever. I realized how most girls I know don't know how cute they are. I wished for many people's heads to explode. My pencil stabbing fetish began! I watched The Grudge and got FREAKED out! I got my taxes back! I got my Nightmare on Elm Street box set. I STILL haven't watched them all. I met KARINA and TOMMY ! Girl's night went FANTAS...

Let's see. I gained a dog. I found out that Legal Aid doesn't deal with ANY bankruptcy stuff. To declare bankruptcy, I'll have to have someone else do it. The talker at work told me she had to scrape together $600.00 to have her attorney do it. So....to tell people I don't have money, I have to have money??? Sure. That makes sense. I had to call SUB and tell them I'm stupid and I will give them money out of the next paycheck. Oh the dog thing? The wind blew a section of my back fence last night. The dog can now freely come into my yard and STARE at me through my back door. With eyes that seem to say you are the MEANEST, cause you won't let me in your house. He ate EVERY plastic thing I had out there. The buckets, stupid crap left out. Then he went for the faucet cover and tore it off and ate that. Then he knocked over my barbecue and ran off with the wire cleaning brush. Which I'm sure he's chewing on. Prolly right now. Unless he's staring through th...

God I love Joss' voice. It's so deep and throaty. Jet Lag Joss Stone Uh-huh Little angels, whisper softly While my heart melts for you and I see Only sunshine Only moonlight For the first time, it's real and The higher you take me, the more that you make me Feel so hazy, tell me what this means I got jet lag and I never even left the ground See it's like that everytime you come around ooh I'm so hungover, and I never even touched a drop See, I can't get enough This must be love How the time flies, when you're near me I get those butterflies inside and all day where the sunshines, where the birds fly 'Til the next time you're mine and The higher you take me, the more that you make me Feel so hazy, tell me what this means I got jet lag and I never even left the ground See it's like that everytime you come around ooh I'm so hungover, and I never even touched a drop See, I can't get enough This must be love Taken over me It feels like gravity...

I'm trying to get out a year in review thing. I was going through my old posts for it, but I only got to February. Hopefully, I can finish it up tonight. I have to work until 8! So, it will be late if I get it done. At least I don't have to work tomorrow.

AHHHHHHH! I kinda like this pic. Unbelievably enough. There's more at http://www.karinablack.blogspot.com/ Including Tommy's CUTE boots.

Fiona ALWAYS makes me think of South Park... Barbara Streisand: Do you KNOW who I AM? Garrison: Well, you ain't Fiona Apple and if you ain't Fiona Apple, I don't give a rats ass. Crazy huh? The First Taste Fiona Apple I lie in an early bed, thinking late thoughts waiting for the black to replace my blue I do not struggle in your web because it was my aim to get caught But daddy longlegs, I feel that I'm finally growing weary of waiting to be consumed by you Chorus: Give me the first taste Let it begin -- heaven cannot wait forever Darling, just start the chase -- I'll let you win but you must make the endeavor Oh, your love give me a heart contusion Adagio breezes fill my skin with sudden red Your hungry flirt borders intrusion I'm building memories on things we have not said Full is not heavy as empty, not nearly, my love Not nearly, my love, not nearly Chorus (1x)

I'm SO tired. I stayed up a little later than I shoulda. But I thought it'll be fine. I went to bed around 12:30, woke up at three and didn't really fall back all the way ASLEEP, until 10 to 5. When my alarm went off. Then I dozed off for about an hour. I dozed in those two hours. I think. It's all kinda hazy. My stomache was VERY UNHAPPY with something. Prolly Taco Bell - I was bloated and any time I managed to fart, I was like.....DAMN, I am RANK! :s It's a lesson, stay away from the Taco Bell. (Yes, Ariel, I AM talking to you) Or the dairy, not really sure. But most likely Taco Bell. I'm still not entirely ok, tummy wise. That might also have something to do with thinking I could get away with eating a bagel for lunch. Also an orange. And a banana. After that, I NEEDED something cheesy, so I got a TINY slice of pizza. But my tummy is just SUPER unsettled. I suppose I COULD have a stomach bug. Eck.

I heard this on my soap opera. I know it's bad that I pick up music from them, but at least I don't go around talking about the characters. Ok, I do. BUT, there are worse things to be addicted to. Feels Like Home Chantal Kreviazuk Something in your eyes makes me want to lose myself Makes me want to lose myself in your arms There's something in your voice Makes my heart beat fast Hope this feeling lasts the rest of my life If you knew how lonely my life has been And how long I've been so alone If you knew how I wanted someone to come along And change my life the way you've done It Feels like home to me It Feels like home to me It Feels like I'm all the way back where I come from It Feels like home to me It Feels like home to me It Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong A window breaks down a long dark street And a siren wails in the night But I'm alright cause I have you here with me And I can almost see through the dark there is light If you knew...

We have an ABUNDANCE of cartoons in this house. Yes, we DO have the kid ones. But we have a bunch of cartoons for us as well. Spike and Mike. Home Movies. 4 Aqua Teens. Some Sea Labs (all BEN'S, I do not care for Sea Lab). South Parks. Invader Zim. And with the addition of Beavis and Butthead....and Aeon Flux, I have even more. I love Aeon. What is it about MTV cartoons? I'd like to have the Maxx as well. It was a strange movie. That's for sure. Daria would be cool as well. Though I don't see much Daria DVDs...just the movies. I'd like the seasons. "I don't want to grow up, I'm a toys-r-us kid."

The other day. In my store. I thought...wow, he looks familiar. Which was when I realized it was Tony Hall. He was this fantastic actor who Heather had the BIGGEST crush on in high school. He was a nice guy. I always thought he was gorgeous, but I didn't really see it when I ran into him. It's strange how as time passes, perceptions change.

I don't really listen to much music over the weekend. It just doesn't happen. Consequently, I have no songs of the day for y'all. I'm sure it's breaking your heart. I ain't got much to share y'all. It's been a pretty run of the mill weekend. Coffee was fun. Everything else is pretty normal around here. We did watch Dracula last night. Keanu as an 18th century guy with the accent? Kinda unbelievable. I haven't watched it in forever. I'd forgotten Anthony Hopkins was in it. I hope everyone else's weekend was as lazy as possible. Next week is gonna be crazy. It's rush. I go in at 7:30 tomorrow, then go in at 11:00, and then get off at eight. That's gonna suck. I have Wednesday off, but I need to go and sit at Legal Aid for as long as it takes to see what I need to do, money-wise. I have to work Saturday, in exchange. That'll suck. I need a vacation, people. I keep thinking, wait until March and you might actually get close to a week....

I like the new format. It's VERY blue. One of my favorite colors. Accomplishments today? Shopping - done Hair cut - done (YAY, it feels so silky and smooth) Coffee with friends - done Conquered Zuma COMPLETELY - done (I don't know what I'm gonna do y'all) Re-formatted the blog to be prettier - done. Maybe there shall be more changes. Right now I'm just congratulating myself on remembering to cut and paste my links, so I didn't lose anything. I really LOVE playing with the HTML. I'm such a dork. Hopefully Ariel will post party pics soon. I thought I got some good ones. We'll see.

This song doesn't make me want to cry anymore. In fact, I find that I'm not NEARLY angry enough about my life to like some of the music I used to listen to. Which is a good thing, right? What Do I Have To Do? Stabbing Westward You make it hard to breathe It's as if I'm sufficating And when you're next to me I can feel your heartbeat through my skin It makes me sad to think This could all be for nothing I wish there was a way A way for you to see inside me I've never felt this way About anyone or anything Tell me.. [Chorus] What do I have to do to make you happy? What do I have to do to make you understand? What do I have to do to make you want me? But if I can't make you want me What do I have to do? I know exactly what you're thinking But I swear this time I will not let you down I'm not as selfish as I used to be That was a part of me that never made me proud Right now I think I would try anything Anything at all to keep you satisfied God I hope yo...

Was strange. People were back. My boss was back. Right off the bat she was talking about these classes for managing your life and stress and stuff. She looked at the talker and she was like....here's one. Taking control of your life, you should take that! I swear, she's just clueless sometimes. It's not ok to be so mean when you're the boss. I don't think she even realizes she's being mean. The talker was like...I have control, thanks. It's just over the top. It's one thing to be annoyed with the talker, but she wasn't even TALKING this time. She was just sitting there quietly and my boss bashes her. They have a class that's called Emotional Intelligence at work. I think my boss should take that.

Since Jesse was going on and ON about how long he's known people and all that junk, Ben and I started talking about how long we've known people. He was like...I've prolly known Alspaugh the longest, cause we went to middle school together (so did Jesse and I, but I don't remember him) and she went out with on of my friend in sixth grade. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Went out? sixth grade? I musta been a late bloomer, I started going out with this guy in Seventh grade and we only held hands. We didn't even kiss. It was really chaste. All of this funneled into my talking about my FIRST boyfriend and how sweet he was. We didn't see each other much outta school, so the last time I saw him was the last day of school and we talked about hanging out. Then my mom moved us here that summer and I never saw him again. I didn't even see him again to tell him about us moving. :s And if I was a late bloomer, I sure caught up. I lost my virginity before Heather did. I know the guy she ...

Always Something There to Remind Me Naked Eyes I walk along the city streets you used to walk along with me And every step I take reminds me of just how we used to be Well how can I forget you girl When there is always something there to remind me? Always something there to remind me As shadows fall I pass the small cafe where we would dance at night And I can't help recalling how it how it felt to kiss and hold you tight Well how can I forget you girl When there is always something there to remind me? Always something there to remind me I was born to love her and I will never be free You'll always be a part of me If you should find you miss the sweet and tender love we used to share Just come back to the places where we used to go and I'll be there Well, how can I forget you girl When there is always something there to remind me? Always something there to remind me I was born to love her and I will never be free You'll always be a part of me Cause there is always somet...

I did it. I bought Glamour this month. I couldn't resist ... I read some of it already. Even though it's stupid, I'm gonna read it all. Cause it's a magazine and that's what I do with magazines. It's already told me that "It's OK if you actually don't like shoes all that much." I'm still a girl. You know, I NEVER thought that it wasn't ok to not like shoes. But they assume I FEEL GUILTY?? Anyhow, it promises to tell me "What GUYS say about us when we're not around." Not that I'll believe it. But it'll be a quick, probably somewhat funny article. If only because they think they know how EVERY MAN would talk. Different people are different. That's the truth. But I have the Dooce article, so it was totally worth it.

Wishful Thinking Duncan Sheik Listen to the waves Everything communicates Will it ever be Anything more Than wishful thinking? Oh no there you go Looked away and Missed the show How much wasted time Will you survive? Feel the blades of grass How it brings you back It will always be Only as green As you can see Oh no there you go Looked away and Missed the show How much wasted time Will you survive? Oh yeah fooled again I don't know how And I don't know when Not much else to blame But wishful thinking Little breakdowns In coastal towns They come suddenly Crashing over you They come easily I'm falling Through the skies And frozen places Oh no there you go Looked away and Missed the show How much wasted time Will you survive Oh yeah fooled again I don't know how And I don't know when Not much else to blame But wishful thinking And I try to realise That I needn't look Any further The whole of The universe Is plain to see And I try not to rely On another world Or the...

Yet another ARC book. It was REALLY good actually. I'm happy I read it. I found some fantastic things written in there. These in particular stuck out to me... "Never ever refer to time spent when not spent as a group; otherwise risk discord, sd postnatal lactating women are as close to raw as a human can ever get and are thus frighteningly unpredictable and possibly violent." or, perhaps...(this is more like a whole section, but it's full effect is wasted without the rest) "But then Ollie stopped. "There's one last thing." The peacekeeper grumbled, "Now what?" Ollie stood in front of him, turned to the side, and in a single motion bent her knee and lifted her giant leg to a near-perfect ninety-degree angle, then shot out her foot in a powerful blast to his face. "Oh, my God!" I covered my mouth and watched as chair and man flipped over and crashed against the wall. "Don't you ever , and I mean ever , use the word cunt i...

Ok, so, I've listened to this song about a million times and I don't entirely know the words. It's hard to understand her. I could see how these would work in the music, but I'm not POSITIVE they are the right words. If they are, Vanilla? How could I have missed THAT. It seems a little weird, but Tori Amos is a little weird I think. Siren Tori Amos And you know you´re na-na gonna lie to you. And in your own way. You know you're na-na gonna lie to you. And in your own way. And I lie some other day. Oh, to do in. And you say You know know too well. Know the chill. Know she breaks my Siren. No teenage flesh. Know that she'll know she breaks my Siren. Now I know that you know I... NEVER was one for a prissy girl coquette Call in for an ambulance Reach high doesn´t mean SHE´S holy just means She´s got a cellular handy almost Brave almost pregnant almost, ya know in love. "VANILLA" Vanilla. and you know you´re gonna lie to you and in your own way. And you kn...

We decided that we should get together (us people with the childrens) and have fun with them and have a semi-party. Heather was the first to show. Her and Mike walked through the door at about 7:30. I'm SO glad she brought Mike. He's COOL. At one point, he put his tongue in Ben's ear and I don't think I've laughed so hard in awhile. He talked with Derek and even bought the gross pooping cow for FIVE BUCKS! (YAY IT IS OUTTA MY HOUSE) Derek is quite the little entrepreneur. We sat around and talked a bit. Then Tammy showed up with Cruz!!!!!!!!! (no kids, unfortunately for Derek). With ROSES, purty roses. (I kinda forgot to pass some of them on to Ariel, Tammy, I'm sorry) And I was SO happy. I love me some Tammy. She gets along with everyone and EVERYONE is always happy to see her cause we don't get to see her very much. Plus, Cruz is pretty funny. Then Karina showed up! With CAKE and more cake and popcorn and a cute little Birdie. She had fun running around my...