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Well, Karen has called and apologized and made a billion excuses. So that makes me breathe easier. Doesn't make me any happier, but less stressed. Do you know that I am kind of glad that it was warmer today? My feet have been freezing for the past few days. =( Today was ok. I hear tomorrow is supposed to be brutal. =( We shall see. I've been attached to the TV the past few nights. I'm trying out Netflix and it's been very entertaining, plus I am DETERMINED to watch all the movies I can. They allow up to 10, I'm gonna get as close as I can, and cancel on the day. I've watched three movies in the past two days. Family Guy - The Stewie movie thing. I don't remember the exact name. Scary Movie 4 - I want an Ipod that instead of destroying humanity, will kill the idiot on the bus. That's not very nice huh...maybe just zap him to New Jersey. And Date Movie - Which made fun of like EVERY date movie ever made. I know that's the point, but it might have been ...

I've been a little too whiny lately. The truth is that I KNOW I will make it all better. I always do. I've been saving my own ass since I was 12, and I've only gotten better. It'll all work out, it often does. This isn't like when I was trying to pay on three different credit cards and was only paid 300 dollars a month or so. I have way more opportunity to save myself now. I noticed today that postal workers make EIGHTEEN DOLLARS AN HOUR. Can you believe that shit? Wow. I had no idea. Kinda makes me wanna become a mail woman. I don't know what is involved, and I do like my job, but DAMN. That is a nice chunk of money. I'm trying to realize that it DOESN'T really matter how much money I make, there will always be problems. I'll always feel like it's not enough. I'll have to have millions of dollars before I'll be able to NOT worry about money. Maybe not even then. I don't know. Perhaps I just always must be worried about something. Had...

When I was little girl, I wanted to be a teacher. I LOVE kids. I really do. They amuse me. They are unintentionally funny, and make great stories for later. To share with other people who like kids. I suppose sharing those stories doesn't help me with people who don't care for kids. I am so glad that I did not turn out to be a teacher, cause I really HATE teaching. The whole time I am trying to teach someone something, my first option is always to just do it myself. Like, here you watch me, I'll do it and then you'll learn. Yeah, not so good for retaining information. Usually, doing it yourself makes a more lasting impression. It does NOT matter that I know this. Because I CAN FUCKING do it faster. No where in my life is this quality more apparent then with my own child. This could be why it was so hard to potty train. I can't exactly do it for him. Today he wanted to help with the dishes. Most of them had cheese and shit pretty stuck, so I figured...well, I should ...

I'm done with the damn dishes. Dishes irritate me. I used to do them every DAMN day, for 6 people no less. And the rule was that while my mom said to do the DISHES, she really meant to clean the damn kitchen. I've dropped that part of it. Rarely do I feel like sweeping after doing all the damn dishes and it's too fucking hot. I think the heat is fucking with everyone. I've run across quite a few people who are irritated, or just plain hopeless. Especially about things like cleaning the house. Let me tell you, it's too fucking hot to clean the damn house. I haven't folded laundry in at least two weeks. Which makes it kinda hard to do more laundry. I didn't want to do the little extra bit that would have made the kitchen prettier. I will be folding laundry, just not right now. Instead I shall type. Since I have done the dishes and I am annoyed, all my other petty greivances are coming out. Like...WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I HAVE NO MONEY, everyone needs something. W...

That is Derek's new favorite saying. I have NO idea. I guess it's better than "I dunno". Anyhow, one more for now, then I must go and fold laundry and do dishes. I'm not very excited about it, but sitting here for an hour and half, only being amused by the internet, does not get my house clean. Since I am BORED, BORED, BORED, cleaning is what I have. I am so poor that I can only spend money on amenities. Jake still has not sent child support money. As far as I know...maybe it's in the mail now. I did sign up for NetFlix. Two free weeks and I am pretty excited. I just have to remember that I MUST cancel the damn thing. I learned from AOL. OK. So, this post was about my dream, not normal bull crap. In my dream, I'd had a baby. We were gonna call him Dominick, Nicky for short. He was cute. (No surprise there, babies invading my dreams after staring at one all day) Ben was all sorts of amused by this baby. Though I don't think it was his. Still he kept car...

I've become quite a thief of other people's LJ icons. I love them. I was trying to post them over here, but they come out too big and then look all pixelated. =( Sad. But I have some of the BEST. Like the crab one...you know the commercial with the "I like to pinch" crab. That one is awesome. Or the Shakira one that says No Fighting. I could totally use that for conversations or something. Regardless, it shows Shakira and she is HAWT. I've also got Tim Curry in drag, HELLO RHPS! He's shaking his hips back and forth. And an Alice in Wonderland one that is a little freaky. The icon reads, "But I don't want to among mad people, Alice remarked". Again something I could use. =) In the right situation. The freaky part is the hand on the window. It looks like a bloody hand, and with the "mad people" remark...makes me think that it involves something a little more creepy than Alice. Though Alice was creepy enough. My new one, and my most favori...

Friday night I got off work a little early! HURRAY! Jen (intern) and I spent a good ten minutes talking to Charles via speakerphone. I miss Charles. At least he is only at the processing center, but still. He's not our cashier anymore. It was fun. I booked it over to Tammy's house in the hopes of getting home before it was too late. I had a plan. We were gonna lie to Derek and tell him Josh couldn't come over. So I went in, grabbed Josh, ran out...sorry I didn't hang out longer..rode the bus home...and Josh waited outside for a second, before I had him knock on the door. The plan was to have Derek open the door. Which was hard, without ruining the surprise, seeing as how I am teaching him not to just throw open the damn door, when he doesn't know who is there. So he peeked out to window and knew before he opened the door. It was still a good surprise. Josh is like crack to Derek. He gets all excited and LOUD. They played some video games, and then we had stir fry fo...

We all know that you give the kiss of life to merkins! This was what was on my random surrealism generator when I came over here to sign in. This is not very nice. And it just confuses me. I mean..I know what a merkin is, I know what the kiss of life is. I GET the idea behind it. BUT WHY THE HELL WOULD SOMEONE WANT A PUBIC HAIR "rug"? I mean. I like having minimal hair down there, if not having it completely gone. You'd think people would be happy, not trying to find a wig to cover it. Ok, there will be more to follow, I just HAD to ask this question.

I wasn't sure what I was gonna write about today, I only knew I HAD to write. Luckily, I keep little thoughts here and there saved for just such occasions. I was wondering the other day when I became such a girl, and kinda narcissistic. I've taken galleries of pictures of just my face, trying to get one PERFECT shot. And I've found a few that I really love. Do you want to know what else? I find myself staring at me in the mirror sometimes. Just...looking over my face. I don't know what I'm looking for, but I usually end up with the eyes. The eyes kinda make my face. It's a pretty face. Maybe round, but pretty. All this just makes me feel narcissistic. Just completely full of myself. On top of that, I have grown to like pink. We brought in a LINE of pink nail polish. See, there is a whole LINE...mixed with a tan? And MORE! Mixed in with other colors. And MORE, over in the corner. Well..almost red, but at least one is labeled pink. I even kinda want to try the NUD...

I'm being sad today. It would seem that the blogging craze is dying down. =( No one seems to be blogging as much, or even reading them as much. Karina urges me to join LJ, she says you get more comments. Which is awesome. Unfortunately, it also sounds like you get more people being critical. I get enough of that. People who get offended if you're too posty, or if your post is too long? Or if you don't know how to put it behind a cut...which I don't. I get plenty of criticism, I don't need extra from the internet. I went and looked at my Nohair window and Jay, mr. troll himself, went ahead and answered that one. Not the Johari. He only knows me well enough to point out my bad qualities, nothing good. *smirk* He said I was humourless? (That's the way the damn window spelled it, I'd spell it humor, but whatever) Which is fine. He must not "get" my humor. I thought I was pretty funny, sometimes unintentionally. Regardless of what he thinks, he is terri...

That's my new favorite word. Seriously. Or again...I'm pretty sure I've liked seriously before. So! I was racking my brain, trying to come up with something semi-entertaining. I've been losing hits and I know it's cause I don't update enough. I've managed not to get into my no-comments funk (You know, the one where I get all butt hurt about no one commenting)....with MUCH help from Karina. She is a serial commenter. Which is awesome. Otherwise, I might have given up on this here blog. I didn't use to care about comments before I KNEW people read it. =S Which is weird. I guess I like to know that I've touched someone. I've brought to their mind something similar, or they just want to talk to me. =) So..I've been taking pictures, to use as filler. That way I can spin a post out of a couple of pictures. Today we are going to talk about my reading habits as of lately. First, I picked up "Unzipped". This was the book that I read through ...

It works like this: You reply to this post and I give you a letter of the alphabet. Then you dregde up 10 songs that start with said letter and put them in your journal (with these or similar instructions). Google/Discogs/iTunes playlists are for complete pantywaists. (I MAY be a bit of a pantywaist. H is HARD, and there aren't many. =S) 1. Home - Micheal Buble 2. Hurt - Nine Inch Nails 3. Humble Me - Norah Jones 4. Hands Clean - Alanis Morrisette 5. Here with Me - Dido 6. Hips Don't Lie - Shakira 7. Hold On - Sarah McLachlan 8. History Repeating - Propellerheads feat. Shirley Bassey 9. Hey Mama - Black Eyed Peas 10. Harder to Breathe - Maroon 5 FINALLY! I rock. =) Thanks to Teresina on for giving me a letter. I also stole some wording from ChowYunSmut . But I am not cool enough to do it entirely on my own. Comment, and I'll give you a letter. Good luck. =)

Nemesis 33% Extroversion, 73% Intuition, 100% Emotiveness, 18% Perceptiveness You are a normally quiet person with very strong convictions and a marked activist streak. You have a clearly defined sense of right and wrong, and you like seeing people punished for their transgressions. You are Nemesis, goddess of punishment. You are a champion for the defenseless, you love poetic justice and, if karmic retribution doesn't have its say, then you'll have yours. You are astute, rarely fooled, and idealistic. Famous People like you: Goethe, Voltaire, Susan B. Anthony, Robert Burns My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender : You scored higher than 24% on Extroversion You scored higher than 69% on Intuition You scored higher than 73% on Emotiveness You scored higher than 0% on Perceptiveness Link: The Greek Mythology Personality Test written by Aleph_Nine on OkCupid Free Online Dating , home...

So....we went to have lunch at the fair. Though we left later then we thought, so Derek ate at home, and got cotton candy there. =) I got a whole half chicken. It was YUMMY! These boys of mine don't eat dark meat. Though Derek did have a bit of my chicken. I share like that. =) I'm a mom. Go figure. Plus, we had funnel cakes! They were yummy. We spent at least two hours walking afterwards, so I'm not about to feel guilty. We saw CHICKENS! and Roosters! and Goats! And Bunnies. I love bunnies. =) They were soft. (I'm SO sad that Dillon and Georgie are getting divorced! =( Back to your regularly scheduled blog) Then we headed over to the rides. This was the first fun house that the boys found. Derek loved going with someone and he didn't even mind that that made the "tickets" go extra fast. And I got to take good pictures. I LOVE this picture. He looks SO happy with himself. =) I didn't even notice the boobs until later. It figures, tits RUINED my PG pi...

I got off work early to go out for our audit dinner. Where we re-hash and have pizza. Turns out we got beer too. A pitcher of Fat Tire (something medium??), and a pitcher of Black Butte Porter. Very dark. They were both yummy. It kinda pained me that there was at least a glass of the Porter left and I didn't want to drink it. I mean...YEAH! I wanted to drink it, but a business meeting? I know that I should only have as much as the person who will drink the most and still have decorum. I succeeded, but damn, I really wanted it. I'm currently drinking Jesse's beer that he left here. THAT'S RIGHT JESSE! I'm drinking your beer. I hope you're not mad. It doesn't taste nearly as good, but I don't want to walk down to the store for something in a bottle. Which always tastes good. Jerri kept urging me to mix the two, and have a Black and Tan. I could totally drink one of those, I know they have them. All pre-mixed. =) Anything in a bottle tastes better then a ca...

I know, out of character. I thought I'd surprise everyone and actually post on Sunday. I didn't quite make posting once a day...or did I? I can't remember now. Oh wait, yep, I did. At least this weekend. I'm awesome. Ok, so anyhow. We went to the fair today and I haven't uploaded pictures, so you'll have to wait. However, I did have an inordinately fun time shopping on Saturday. I did do better. I came away from the produce aisle with far more produce than usually. The yogurts are doing good. YAY! YOGURT! Seriously. It's good. I'm surprised. It's good for my tummy. I'm super surprised I actually like something good for me. My shopping bill was higher. Too much higher. Like 60 bucks more than normal. =( People say shopping healthier is cheaper. Than I must be doing something wrong. Next time I oughta include beans, so we'll eat more of those. Beans are good for you, right? And cheaper. Better for budget, and good for the fiber? I don't kno...

We're going to the fair tomorrow. Derek told Jake, over the phone, that he wanted to go on the up-side down rides. There is no way in hell I'm going on those things. Ben doesn't relish the idea either and I don't want him going alone. I hope he isn't tall enough. =S That's an awful, mothery, thing to say. Anyhow. It should be fun. Some food, walking around looking at animals, getting to see Derek have fun. And I can take my camera! I love my digital camera. It's really the best toy I bought this year. Besides the Ipod, which I count my dad and Ben as having paid for. =) Anyhow, I'll have pictures! After tomorrow. Tonight, I'm going shopping...I know WOOHOO, right? Except I always have fun with Karina. We make shopping fun. I like shopping with people, just not shopping with kids. Plus, I'm outta coffee and it's not cool. I wanted to have a couple of cups and read the paper this morning. I got a free two week trial period, so that we could get...

I've been doing my damndest to make sure I don't gain more weight while I'm on the Depo. I have yet to work in enough exercise to be good for me. Every time I'm like...this will work, I drop it. I always think...I can do something at lunch. Honestly? I like reading at lunch. I should walk instead. It would de-stress me just as much. Today I had to buy lunch and I tried to think of somewhere I could eat..that maybe I could eat quick and go for a walk as well? And also finding something that isn't fried. It's hard when every part of my body wants french fries. Sometimes I compromise and just eat fries for lunch. At least I'm not adding a hamburger on top of it. Today, I went for Home fries with Cheese. I get my potato craving. They are red potatoes with skin, so HURRAY for fiber...a little anyhow. And more calcium. Calcium is good, osteoporosis is bad. The people at the Glenwood were all like..you realize it's just potatoes and cheese? Umm. Yeah, I ordered...

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Transylvanian! You scored 72% Oh yeah! You're the one sitting in the middle with me shouting call lines at the screen! Isn't Rocky just great? My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender : You scored higher than 42% on points Link: The Rocky Horror Picture Show Test written by Ewic on OkCupid Free Online Dating , home of the 32-Type Dating Test

you little freak you You scored 72% pervertedness! you are freaky you like to dip and dabble a little bit into everything you are very secure and confident about your sexual life you don't mind doing things for your partner as long as they make it worth your while! My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender : You scored higher than 65% on pervertedness Link: The freak in the bed Test written by Disco_Bloodbath on OkCupid Free Online Dating , home of the 32-Type Dating Test