Random Thoughts

I've been thinking that my big mouth tends to get me in trouble. I lead with emotions, it's not a good thing. So I've been trying not to run my mouth as much lately. But I can see the collision coming. My brain seems to be in overdrive, and yet I'm not speaking of my problems. Some are too personal, some I know better than to talk about on the internet. It's never a good thing when my brain is in overdrive. I'm sure it doesn't help that this is my "other" allergy season. I can't tell you what I'm allergic too, the doctors don't know. I don't want to take the Sudafed that was the last resort. I may as well be asleep if I take that crap. So I wake up feeling like I'm coming down with something, and have felt this way for weeks now. My headache has been a steady, low pressure for this past week. Tylenol helps, but after it wears off, it comes right back. This is probably affecting my mood. Yesterday the bus seemed to be going pr...

It could be that I know I have to go home and then go shopping when I get home. It could be that I know the day is not going to be over until 10 or so what with the shopping. It could be that I slept through the alarm and have been scrambling ever since. It could be that I stayed up too late? Though I slept through the night and didn't wake up once that I remember which is rare for me, so you'd think I'd be ahead. I didn't have coffee at home, so maybe I just need to drink more. I just feel drained at this point. It is most likely because I worked Saturday, had one day off to do errands and a whole bunch of bullshit, and then came back to work. So maybe I just need a real weekend. I know that other people do it all the time, some people never have a day off and work 2 different jobs and my hat is off to them cause I could not handle that. I've made a ton of posts and tried to finish them, but they don't feel complete. I've been working on one for like a week...

Ok, so mini-boss aside, this has not really been that bad of a week. First of all, my skin is becoming more normal, and I have my health. Just allergies are kicking my ass and boy are they. I'm tempted to take two fake Claritin, but it says all over the damn bottle not to. My eyes don't get as itchy, so that's a yay, but I wake up in the morning needing to clear my whole head out, and so I proceed to sneeze a million times. While I'm trying to be quiet and head out for work and let the boys sleep in. (fucking boys. LOL) I hate sneezing when I am trying to be quiet. Or sneezing on the bus when I don't have tissue. And then finding out later that I DID have tissue and didn't need to wipe it all over my jeans. =( Second of all, tomorrow is pay day, it's Wednesday so at the end of the day, I'm MORE than halfway there, tomorrow Derek goes to Portland, so I should have a nice quiet night alone with Ben, and I even have plans for the weekend. Third, I'm ...