Random Thoughts

I'm the dumbest bitch ever. I just keep trying with this place and they just keep piling it on. Derek and I can't BOTH be out of work so I've stalled on checking out other positions. Sure guys, I can be ALL of A/P and since we have 3 goddamn people, I can be ALL of Accounting when one calls in sick and the other is in meetings all the time. Really I'm just grumpy because it's the beginning of the term and Ben is waiting for his blood draw and results and today is not a good d ay.  I wanted to call in. I thought about it momentarily, but figured I should show in case B was still out sick... you know, because then we'd have NO ONE in the department in the office. Good call when your accounting team is so fucking small two people can't be out sick or on vacation at the same time. They'll probably be all "we don't know why she lost her shit and quit" when I finally break. Which just makes me want to laugh maniacally.  Yesterday...

Was thinking about parenting this week as my child was preparing to leave my “nest” for Portland for 7 long weeks…(they feel long now, will no doubt fly by as life does). Most everything is a double edged sword. You try doing something this way or that way and suddenly an entirely different problem will present itself. Life is weird like that. For instance – I often find myself telling people how my kid is sheltered, a bit naïve and I’ll always follow that up with something along the lines of liking it that way. To an extent, that is true. I do appreciate his naiveté in the face of so many, many kids his age running around and knowing “too much” about things I feel are adult topics. Flip that coin though….he’s also less mature. And maybe less prepared to deal with issues should they arise. Things like sex, boobs, drugs….I honestly don’t know which way he’d go. When I was trying to feel him out the other night after his promotion ceremony about any girls he may have had crushes...

Heh. By that I mean not on my MySpace page, though I've been putting up TMI_Chix posts galore on LJ. It's funny right now, since I'm awake and it's not happening, but let me share this maddening bit of crazy that my brain concocts at night. I put in the cream (ICK) and I go to bed. Wait, first I go pee, then I put in the cream, then I go to bed. I lay awake forever when I usually fall asleep pretty quickly, and I start thinking..hey, wouldn't it suck if I had to pee? All of the sudden, I KNOW I have to pee. I fight the urge, become convinced that the thinking is WHY I can't fall asleep and so I surrender and give up and go pee. I come back to bed after peeing only a minuscule amount and cry (not so much fun) because of course that little moment of peeing has probably WRECKED any and all chances of the medicine working. Of course. (This is my amount of neurosis, this is why I feel stupid half the time) Repeat as necessary. Any fellow pee-ers out there? Any sort o...