"I'm losing my mind losing my mind losing control"
As I listen to the neighbors yelling today...I wonder if it's them yelling at their kids? They do have a toddler so...they are frustrating. But about a week ago, it was very quiet in my house and after the door slammed YET AGAIN, I heard very clearly "Well fuck you!" so I'm guessing they also fight. Now I'm just sad for their children. Remembering all the nights the drunken fighting got out of control and the cops were called on them.. wondering where I'd go since my step grandma made no secret of her disdain for me and that I wasn't part of their family. Not her blood. I didn't believe my dad would take me in and I didn't want to be separated from my sisters. I felt protective of them and how could I do that if I wasn't with them? I hear stories of people saying CSD (child services division? Child protective services now?) or whatever it's called now was called on them and they suddenly are in such trouble and might have their kids take...