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I don't know if I have to be stressed before the holidays so that I can be less stressed later or what. Last year I bought Ben the iPod. Little can be better than that. I have no idea what to get him. I have no idea what I can afford. This last check was nice, for about two seconds. Then the reality hit and I had to pay SUB who I had delayed in favor of Derek's birthday, and the trash bill. Add rent to that, and I'm pretty much poor. Less than poor actually, but I always make it work. It just means that I'll have to borrow from the next check. Which is what really sucks, cause that's my holiday money. I don't know how people can afford to have more than one child. I don't know what to get Derek either, I can only charge so much to my store account before it comes back to bite me in the ass. Strangely, Fingerhut is offering me credit. It's so tempting, but I'm pretty sure that they would not approve me if I tried. I believe I still owe them money. Cre...

Well that was a fairly dramatic note to leave the blog on. I haven't been upset or anything, just busy. Just something I had to say, but way dramatic. I'm like that. In any case. I meant to post this Tuesday, when I started it. It took longer than that, obviously. I meant to post this last night, but I got sucked into my book. I was about halfway through it yesterday, now I'm done. I devour books towards the end of them. Good ones, anyhow. On that note, here's my blog post. So, guess what I did this past week? Smucked up my back pretty badly. I fell asleep Friday night, woke up not even an hour later hurting badly. I can't sleep correctly. Or correctly to me, which is on my stomach. That hurts too bad and there is no moving easily, cause apparently, I use the muscle I smucked up to move my legs around in bed. Feels like I'm rolling around like a smucking turtle. I like smuck as a word. Just so you know. So, since it's been better after this weekend, I've...

I'm prone to flights of fancy. Have been since about, well since forever. Whenever I start to feel unappreciated, instead I think, well maybe I will die tomorrow, some horrible death and then they will miss me and understand and appreciate me more. It's not to the extent that I would make it happen (dying), only that I think it will make others care about me. Like most things I do. Ha. Then I start to think things like... 1. If I die tomorrow, Ben would wish he had married me and he would miss me. (that's the biggest thing I got for him, LOL and really marriage becomes less and less of a safe haven for me) 2. If I die tomorrow, everyone at work would cry for a million days (I'm extreme, I know) and realize how awesome I really was. 3. If I die tomorrow, all my "friends" that haven't made time for me, haven't bothered to see me even would all of the sudden care about me and miss me. Silly, I know. They probably wouldn't even notice. Much like I did...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bad day at work. I'm full of the hate. I'm itchy and bitchy cause of the weather. My co-worker can do as she likes, come in when she pleases, then claim that it's due to my scheduling. I swear to god she is a habitual liar, and I am just so angry. Instead of just taking the blame, she blames it on my schedule. Suck it up lady! Quit blaming everything on everyone else. Quit whining about being here late. I've been here 5 years and I still have to be here late EVERY DAY. She always gets out early on Friday, I do not. From what you say when you are habitually lying, it sounds like you used to work at night all the time, so why is 7 such a problem? I hate you. Just so you know. I wish that I didn't have to work anywhere near you. I'm so frustrated with it all, I could just cry. Instead I will sit here, not cry and wish that things were different while my head hurts.

Mission: Accomplished. Got to the courthouse as early as I could. 8, almost on the dot. Waited to have my form notarized, ran up to the courtroom (waited until 8:30!), had them sign off on my fee deferral. Answer? I have to pay the fee, but I can make payments! HURRAY! Went back down to the original room, had to have them stamp the papers, plus she gave me a few pointers, so I furiously added some lines to the bottom of the "answer" quickly. They did not give me a court date, so I feel a little relieved. This could potentially mean that it won't go all the way to court (in my head, no one told me this). Maybe they will decide not to go that far since I am not taking it lying down. In any case, the "answer" is filed. They can't garnish me without taking me to court now. I feel really relieved. So very relieved. If it buys me enough time to get to tax return season, than perhaps I should do the bankruptcy thing. If it means I won't be garnished for the re...

I'm starting to believe I'm fucked. Seriously. Not being able to pay the debt is not a defense. I think I have a defense, but no real proof. SO WTF? Do I just let them garnish my wages and pay less ultimately or do I fight it and potentially have to pay their court and attorney costs on top of the debt? And should I have just fucking called them originally and set up payments for less than I owed? How do I not know any fucking lawyers? I need a lawyer friend please.

Boobs. Who knew? LOL. These are my favorites.. Kim Stephanie and Geneva Enjoy.

Bad day y'all. I'm pretty convinced that my ass is going to get sued off, I couldn't file anything at court today cause I needed actual papers. Some sort of form. It's going to cost $129.00; which I really don't have since my son would like to have a birthday. How can my week get so shitty, so quickly? The lady at the court house told me I had three options... 1. Get a lawyer. Ha. Like I can afford that. 2. Go to Willamette Stationers. 3. Go to the library at the court house and look up some examples and draft my own. I chose number three. And they gave me a form for fee deferral based on my income. Hopefully that will work and it won't actually cost me anything. I'm really fucking convinced that the Statute of Limitations ran out before they served me papers, but have I kept everything from 2001? Nope. No way. In my papers, I've alleged that I stopped paying in July. Which was when I stopped paying everything else. They didn't write it off until Nov...

Besides the hooligans. I hate the hooligan teenagers. It's how I know I'm getting old, I groan every time I have to be near a group of teenagers. And I really like the word "hooligan", cause it will not get me in trouble. Not like bitches! will. Pretty much all of Accounting dressed up, with a few exceptions. We decorated the whole place and I think we did a damn good job. It was a lot easier to mimic the toga party from "Animal House" than to mimic "Pleasantville". Our IT/Marketing/One extra person did "Shaun of the Dead". I'm so super jealous, but hardly anyone in Accounting has even watched that movie. They wouldn't have known how to dress. They did a fantastic job of it though! I'm glad someone got to use it, as it's pretty much the best zombie movie ever! At one point, talk turned to RHPS and someone was asking what it was about. They had never seen it 0_o. I KNOW! It's one thing not to have seen it live, entirely...