"And The Sky Was Made Of Amethyst"
Originally posted to MySpace on Thursday, April 17th
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I'm better now. Again, thanks to all who gave me words of encouragement.
Having Hole's Violet on repeat has helped a bunch too.
It tends to remind me of Beavis and Butthead, when they get all excited cause they think the video title is Violent, and they go off about it.
I may have to watch that later. I have it on DVD, I can if I want to.
More on the music later, I thought I would do a fun little post about the angry music I've had blaring on my iPod to better help me deal with the frustration.
I also sent my boss a LONG email explaining how I was feeling this week about the whole damn thing. I think she realizes how irritated I really am, how sad I am that people can't just be happy, and how angry I get when people have lots to bitch about, but no solutions to offer.
I'm a solution kind of girl. If you tell me a problem, I will try to fix it, even if that's not possible. Or not even what you wanted. It can be a bad and a good thing.
But YAY! It's the weekend! I have rum (needed at this point) and my computer. Plus my boyfriend, and plans for tomorrow.
Besides the dentist visit, that is. The crossing guard teacher on duty this morning told me that she used to be a dental assistant and what they are waiting for is to see if the tooth just dies. If it dies, then it's root canal time. If not, the filling should hold up and everybody will be much happier.
Derek is heading off to Tammi's to stay the night and for roller skating. We're pretending I'm not freaked out about that, but I have tried to instruct the boy on how to fall properly. I can't keep him from doing things.
He responded with "I'll keep my mouth closed next time.", which to me does not sound like a solid plan. I tried to explain that he should, oh I dunno, maybe use his HANDS to prevent himself from hitting the ground at full force.
I'm going to Sidney's house, I like Sidney parties. And she came to my last non-party, so I will definitely be going. We may not be exactly on time, but we'll be close. It all depends on how long we waffle about what kind of alcohol we want.
Saturday I get to pick up my kid, and hang with Tammi all at the same time.
The rest of the weekend has no plans, but I like it that way.
Well, besides grocery shopping at some point. Which kind of looks like it's going to suck what with the rain and all. But we'll do it, we always do. Necessity is a good thing with me, or else I'd eat out all the time.
It's odd being an adult most of the time. I find myself sympathizing with my boss and noticing the things that people do that they shouldn't too often. I'd like to be friends with all my co-workers, but sometimes it's weird when I don't agree with their work ethics. I'll lie and be like..yeah! Damn that, but inside I'm like...well, I can see their point.
I hate being able to see two sides to almost any issue, it makes it awful hard to stay angry at people.
Some would say that's a good thing, but I've had instances where I should really be angry at people, and yet I can't stay angry.
Besides with the big stuff. I talk about being angry a lot, but it's usually fleeting, so I guess that's good.
Better for my blood pressure anyhow.
Off to screw around on the internets some more. Maybe I'll even play Doom! YAY DOOM! A game I can (kind of) win.
That just makes my brain head off on another tangent with Grr singing the doom song. Ah, my ADD.
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I'm better now. Again, thanks to all who gave me words of encouragement.
Having Hole's Violet on repeat has helped a bunch too.
It tends to remind me of Beavis and Butthead, when they get all excited cause they think the video title is Violent, and they go off about it.
I may have to watch that later. I have it on DVD, I can if I want to.
More on the music later, I thought I would do a fun little post about the angry music I've had blaring on my iPod to better help me deal with the frustration.
I also sent my boss a LONG email explaining how I was feeling this week about the whole damn thing. I think she realizes how irritated I really am, how sad I am that people can't just be happy, and how angry I get when people have lots to bitch about, but no solutions to offer.
I'm a solution kind of girl. If you tell me a problem, I will try to fix it, even if that's not possible. Or not even what you wanted. It can be a bad and a good thing.
But YAY! It's the weekend! I have rum (needed at this point) and my computer. Plus my boyfriend, and plans for tomorrow.
Besides the dentist visit, that is. The crossing guard teacher on duty this morning told me that she used to be a dental assistant and what they are waiting for is to see if the tooth just dies. If it dies, then it's root canal time. If not, the filling should hold up and everybody will be much happier.
Derek is heading off to Tammi's to stay the night and for roller skating. We're pretending I'm not freaked out about that, but I have tried to instruct the boy on how to fall properly. I can't keep him from doing things.
He responded with "I'll keep my mouth closed next time.", which to me does not sound like a solid plan. I tried to explain that he should, oh I dunno, maybe use his HANDS to prevent himself from hitting the ground at full force.
I'm going to Sidney's house, I like Sidney parties. And she came to my last non-party, so I will definitely be going. We may not be exactly on time, but we'll be close. It all depends on how long we waffle about what kind of alcohol we want.
Saturday I get to pick up my kid, and hang with Tammi all at the same time.
The rest of the weekend has no plans, but I like it that way.
Well, besides grocery shopping at some point. Which kind of looks like it's going to suck what with the rain and all. But we'll do it, we always do. Necessity is a good thing with me, or else I'd eat out all the time.
It's odd being an adult most of the time. I find myself sympathizing with my boss and noticing the things that people do that they shouldn't too often. I'd like to be friends with all my co-workers, but sometimes it's weird when I don't agree with their work ethics. I'll lie and be like..yeah! Damn that, but inside I'm like...well, I can see their point.
I hate being able to see two sides to almost any issue, it makes it awful hard to stay angry at people.
Some would say that's a good thing, but I've had instances where I should really be angry at people, and yet I can't stay angry.
Besides with the big stuff. I talk about being angry a lot, but it's usually fleeting, so I guess that's good.
Better for my blood pressure anyhow.
Off to screw around on the internets some more. Maybe I'll even play Doom! YAY DOOM! A game I can (kind of) win.
That just makes my brain head off on another tangent with Grr singing the doom song. Ah, my ADD.
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