Cruel Summer
It's been a weird summer. I get home and I don't even want to LOOK at the computer, so I get all lax about posting. It's just that I know that nothing entertaining will have popped up. People are enjoying the summer and avoiding their computers much like myself.
My cousin was the most contact I had on MySpace, and I think I offended him. I tried to be thoughtful and give a really good answer, or at least my point of view on my music, and he insisted that that wasn't what he meant at all. I think we got it sorted out, but I don't know. I find myself worrying that we will end up with nothing to talk about. He listens primarily to Country, and is a virgin, and will be until he is married. It's completely commendable, but I just have such a hard time with it. People talk about how the natural progression of a relationship is to have sex about 2 or 3 months into it. I'm pretty sure that since I've been doing "it" most boyfriends and I did it almost immediately. Maybe not the best choice, but it proves my point. I'm too white trash and easy, and I'm not sure the he is going to think I'm as awesome as he thinks I am now when he gets to know that.
Which makes me sad. I don't like it when people lose their illusions about me. Which is strange, you'd think that I would like it when people liked me for being me. And I do, I think I just get a rush from that honeymoon period when it feels like I can do no wrong in their eyes.
So, I've not been checking that as much cause I almost dread him figuring me out. LOL. And people haven't been able to LJ as much, so my friend's list is just pretty much filled with cat macros and people looking for books they can't figure out. Oh and the occasional thrift stop horror. Not the meatiness I look for. It's all fluff. =)
And my blog? Well, I know people read it, I can see that, but it's a vicious cycle. I don't blog for awhile, then people stop checking on it cause they think I'm not blogging, and then I don't get comments. Jenn is the only one who I know for certain is keeping up with it. And I do understand, I'm not trying to guilt trip. People are busy, and people have lives. My life is boring and so I blog. LOL. Except when I don't. HA.
So that's my explanation for being lax. I even have some entries typed up, I just haven't gotten around to posting them.
I'm more than a little proud of myself today though. I got me a new doctor last week! She's a cute little Asian lady, and I really like her. She was very nice and it felt like she was really listening to me, not just trying to shove me out the door. Getting a new doctor is super weird, I had to go through so much of my health history, and my family's history. As much as I know anyhow.
Which isn't much. We'll hope there isn't some weird disease that one of my relatives has that I'll never know about.
Plus! My baby is home. I swear he's gotten taller just in the 5 weeks he's been gone. On one hand, it feels like he never left, on the other, it feels like it was forever. I guess he got through Harry Potter number 4, and is on to number 5. I don't know if he is excited about school, but he doesn't have long before he's thrust into it. LOL.
His room is still clean. For about one day, I'm sure. He was excited by seeing things that had disappeared into the bottom of the toy box. And he still has a box of books to go through. I kind of want to get another kid over to visit while they can still find all his toys. LOL.
In any case, I got to work early, cause a co-worker saw me standing, waiting for the bus, but I have to clock in soon. So I will leave you with that.
My cousin was the most contact I had on MySpace, and I think I offended him. I tried to be thoughtful and give a really good answer, or at least my point of view on my music, and he insisted that that wasn't what he meant at all. I think we got it sorted out, but I don't know. I find myself worrying that we will end up with nothing to talk about. He listens primarily to Country, and is a virgin, and will be until he is married. It's completely commendable, but I just have such a hard time with it. People talk about how the natural progression of a relationship is to have sex about 2 or 3 months into it. I'm pretty sure that since I've been doing "it" most boyfriends and I did it almost immediately. Maybe not the best choice, but it proves my point. I'm too white trash and easy, and I'm not sure the he is going to think I'm as awesome as he thinks I am now when he gets to know that.
Which makes me sad. I don't like it when people lose their illusions about me. Which is strange, you'd think that I would like it when people liked me for being me. And I do, I think I just get a rush from that honeymoon period when it feels like I can do no wrong in their eyes.
So, I've not been checking that as much cause I almost dread him figuring me out. LOL. And people haven't been able to LJ as much, so my friend's list is just pretty much filled with cat macros and people looking for books they can't figure out. Oh and the occasional thrift stop horror. Not the meatiness I look for. It's all fluff. =)
And my blog? Well, I know people read it, I can see that, but it's a vicious cycle. I don't blog for awhile, then people stop checking on it cause they think I'm not blogging, and then I don't get comments. Jenn is the only one who I know for certain is keeping up with it. And I do understand, I'm not trying to guilt trip. People are busy, and people have lives. My life is boring and so I blog. LOL. Except when I don't. HA.
So that's my explanation for being lax. I even have some entries typed up, I just haven't gotten around to posting them.
I'm more than a little proud of myself today though. I got me a new doctor last week! She's a cute little Asian lady, and I really like her. She was very nice and it felt like she was really listening to me, not just trying to shove me out the door. Getting a new doctor is super weird, I had to go through so much of my health history, and my family's history. As much as I know anyhow.
Which isn't much. We'll hope there isn't some weird disease that one of my relatives has that I'll never know about.
Plus! My baby is home. I swear he's gotten taller just in the 5 weeks he's been gone. On one hand, it feels like he never left, on the other, it feels like it was forever. I guess he got through Harry Potter number 4, and is on to number 5. I don't know if he is excited about school, but he doesn't have long before he's thrust into it. LOL.
His room is still clean. For about one day, I'm sure. He was excited by seeing things that had disappeared into the bottom of the toy box. And he still has a box of books to go through. I kind of want to get another kid over to visit while they can still find all his toys. LOL.
In any case, I got to work early, cause a co-worker saw me standing, waiting for the bus, but I have to clock in soon. So I will leave you with that.
Comments
plus i'm mentally stalking you.. i think everyone i see is you!
We gotta get the boys together sometime before school starts.
And yes, LJ feed is cool.
Tammi-What is wrong with my brain? I always want to put an "i" in the end of your name, but I keep convincing myself it's a "y" and that I have it wrong.
I emailed you from my work email about getting the boys together. I whole heartedly agree.
And hurray for new doctors. She's so nice and not scary at all. I felt like I could tell her anything, which is good cause I might have to. LOL