My kid's gone now..
Life is a lot quieter without him around. I keep feeling like he's just asleep or something, and then Saturday night I realized that I could be as loud as I wanted at midnight, cause he really wasn't sleeping.
It's weird. You'd think I'd be used to it, but I'm not quite there yet.
So far so good, no phone calls about him losing his tooth piece or anything.
Ben and I had an ok weekend. Would have been better if I wasn't totally broke, but that is just the way life works. Oh well. Some other weekend. We are actually going to Sidney's birthday party on Saturday, so that's something to look forward to. I'm not sure how far it is from the closest bus stop, but it should be an adventure none the less! And I'm promising myself that I won't make myself sick or stupid.
My house is still really clean and I'm so appreciating it. We actually got the dishes done yesterday while they were still not bad, so it looks pretty awesome.
Ben goes out Friday for his magic thing, and I'll have to figure out something to do for dinner. I know that there is an awards show I'd like to watch that night that he would be happy to miss, so at least I have a minor plan.
I slept like crap last night. Pretty much par for the course after my kids leaves. I hope it'll get better after a few days, cause I feel pretty dumb today after sleeping so badly. And I realized that the monster bottle of allergy medicine I bought awhile ago expired in April this year. I can't bring myself to throw out more than a month's worth, so I'm still taking them. I'm kind of sneezy, but I don't want to claw my eyes out so that's something. I so wanted to call in sick today after the non-sleeping, but I knew I should just get up and deal. So I did.
Yay for me. I rock. This is why I have like 90 hours of sick time...cause I can't bring myself to consider myself sick enough to call in. Unlike other people who shall remain nameless.
Before the whole sleeping like crap thing, I was doing pretty well. I got sucked into America's Best Dance Crew. I feel guilty for liking it so much, but then I realized that even Ben got sucked in. He was talking about their synchronicity and stuff, so I didn't feel as bad. Now if I can just remember that it's on on Thursdays, perhaps I'll actually get to see it more often.
This whole week is just laid out before me full of suck.
I don't know why, but it already feels like it's going to be a long week. I should know better, before I even know it the kid will be back and it'll be back to school time. lol.
I'm half convinced that the world is coming to an end. What's with all the weather stuff? Like flooding in Iowa? Next thing you know, it'll be snowing here in June or something. *knock on wood*.
Perhaps I should not watch the weather channel before I leave for work?
Last week I slept better, but had weird dreams. Dreams where I screamed and ranted at Ben for some reason or another. I may have even threw something at him. I come out of these dreams feeling disoriented. I've very much felt the impotent rage that I feel in such dreams, but I've never actually yelled at people or thrown things at them. ONE TIME I threw my wallet across the room and it was loud, but I just blamed it on the kid at that point. I was so very angry, but nothing I could say or do would make any difference. Which is the way these dreams always feel, but instead of making peace with it, I just scream and hurl things. I'm not a very nice person in my dreams. And no, nothing is wrong with Ben and I, I just get these weird dreams.
Last night we were talking about how long it had been and Ben said 6 years, and I was all like...NOPE, 7! lol!
Granted, it's only just become 7 in March, so I'm gonna let that one slide. =)
Ok, I'm done being boring.
For now.
I'm still debating over my birthday and what I shall do. I'm not so good with throwing parties and it's rather unfair right now cause it's perfect timing. My kid is gone, I have no neighbor to annoy, and my house is really freaking clean.
*sigh*
Meh. Now I'm really done. =p
It's weird. You'd think I'd be used to it, but I'm not quite there yet.
So far so good, no phone calls about him losing his tooth piece or anything.
Ben and I had an ok weekend. Would have been better if I wasn't totally broke, but that is just the way life works. Oh well. Some other weekend. We are actually going to Sidney's birthday party on Saturday, so that's something to look forward to. I'm not sure how far it is from the closest bus stop, but it should be an adventure none the less! And I'm promising myself that I won't make myself sick or stupid.
My house is still really clean and I'm so appreciating it. We actually got the dishes done yesterday while they were still not bad, so it looks pretty awesome.
Ben goes out Friday for his magic thing, and I'll have to figure out something to do for dinner. I know that there is an awards show I'd like to watch that night that he would be happy to miss, so at least I have a minor plan.
I slept like crap last night. Pretty much par for the course after my kids leaves. I hope it'll get better after a few days, cause I feel pretty dumb today after sleeping so badly. And I realized that the monster bottle of allergy medicine I bought awhile ago expired in April this year. I can't bring myself to throw out more than a month's worth, so I'm still taking them. I'm kind of sneezy, but I don't want to claw my eyes out so that's something. I so wanted to call in sick today after the non-sleeping, but I knew I should just get up and deal. So I did.
Yay for me. I rock. This is why I have like 90 hours of sick time...cause I can't bring myself to consider myself sick enough to call in. Unlike other people who shall remain nameless.
Before the whole sleeping like crap thing, I was doing pretty well. I got sucked into America's Best Dance Crew. I feel guilty for liking it so much, but then I realized that even Ben got sucked in. He was talking about their synchronicity and stuff, so I didn't feel as bad. Now if I can just remember that it's on on Thursdays, perhaps I'll actually get to see it more often.
This whole week is just laid out before me full of suck.
I don't know why, but it already feels like it's going to be a long week. I should know better, before I even know it the kid will be back and it'll be back to school time. lol.
I'm half convinced that the world is coming to an end. What's with all the weather stuff? Like flooding in Iowa? Next thing you know, it'll be snowing here in June or something. *knock on wood*.
Perhaps I should not watch the weather channel before I leave for work?
Last week I slept better, but had weird dreams. Dreams where I screamed and ranted at Ben for some reason or another. I may have even threw something at him. I come out of these dreams feeling disoriented. I've very much felt the impotent rage that I feel in such dreams, but I've never actually yelled at people or thrown things at them. ONE TIME I threw my wallet across the room and it was loud, but I just blamed it on the kid at that point. I was so very angry, but nothing I could say or do would make any difference. Which is the way these dreams always feel, but instead of making peace with it, I just scream and hurl things. I'm not a very nice person in my dreams. And no, nothing is wrong with Ben and I, I just get these weird dreams.
Last night we were talking about how long it had been and Ben said 6 years, and I was all like...NOPE, 7! lol!
Granted, it's only just become 7 in March, so I'm gonna let that one slide. =)
Ok, I'm done being boring.
For now.
I'm still debating over my birthday and what I shall do. I'm not so good with throwing parties and it's rather unfair right now cause it's perfect timing. My kid is gone, I have no neighbor to annoy, and my house is really freaking clean.
*sigh*
Meh. Now I'm really done. =p
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